June 2, 2007..Makati City, Paseo de Roxas ave... Around 7pm..That night the weather is cold and walkways are slippery after a continous rain..I cannot walk as fast I could on my way to the terminal because I might bump to the other person.....This would be a usual night except that 5 minutes ago I have finally break free to a relationship that was not ment to be ..in short..I have to break up with my boyfriend.. Ironically..It felt good...letting go of something I really covet..
Letting go of something your really want it not easy especially if there is no assurance of you'll going to have it again..It requires faith...It is faith that will make you strong to stay firm on your decision...After that day ve spent sleepless night...and occasionally you will saw me staring at something and crying..I realized that relationship is n joke...how you begin & how you ends really matters. In the saddest part of my life, I've come to appreciate all the people who really care for me...
Year pass and little by little I've strive to be a better person. I learned how to value my values, my family, my dreams. I see to it that I'll keep on learning...I've attended seminars, workshops, camps...etc..in various area of interest...I'm doing this for myself & for him..I'm not just waiting ..I'm preparing .I'm enjoying the things that I thought I'll give up when I'm with him I'm still holding on to God's promise that he will give me his Best..though honestly I often doubt but of course He is God..One thing is for sure I will not wake things that is not yet due....alam nya na yon..
To my impatience, doubts, & uncertainty...beyond my loneliness..I submit to the great plan of God..He who is the source of Love that is true & endless..until then to the man I will submit my vow..ang tagal mo san ka na ba??
Ang buhay ay puno ng katopakan, kadramahan at kulitan...and here some list of my own...
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