taking it slow

I'm a little bit disappointed of him..not once but twice now..I hope by this time your sensitive enough not to do it again..In this complicated relationship I will do most of the adjustment ..I'm up for that when I allowed you to step in to my life..I would like to think that your doing this out of ..ignorance I guess..sorry for the term..It really annoys me,,,(sigh)!!this must be one of the sacrifices that I would face ..I never imagined that my first real relationship would look like this.I guess God is too wise to know His plans...till then I stay with you..We will grow together...and our Love,,As of this moment I can say your special.,,that's it..always remember what I have told you, that I will give you all the chances you need to know me...just don't do anything stupid..I mean it ...This must be something exciting to you and something you look forward to,..but for me it may be my last chance... I've been hurt before and still hurting for the same man..but you give me hope to make things right this time...When I'm with you..God is telling me that He acknowledge my needs that I am no forgotten,,That I am Loved..I am moved by your words..by how you make me special but I am human so weak to weigh too much of mistakes done than the good one,,I am not perfect I will hurt you unintentionally ..the way your doing to me now..we can talk it over..Let just not make mistake twice ok...I already told a past Love of mine that you are my future..Be the man...and I will be your lady..

korean mania

It was in college when I was hooked at Meteor Garden, who can forget the F4 and san chai. I could say that I'm a little bit overacting that time..I even keep clipings and large posters of the cast..My mind going gaga for that show..I even remember lending my younger brother my precious cell phone so that I dont have any competition in watching tv....I guess Im not the only I could say...and this addiction continue especially now that I can buy things that I want..If I would enumerate all the series that I have watched It would be long long list...I came to realize now right at this very moment on why do I have that attachment to this kind of stuff. It eats all my time, my resources, my thoughts..why am I hooked to this...Why do I Love watching koreanovelas??? my fantasies become real, this is my scape..It gives me hope that someday I will be the bida and this handsome young man we love me so much,,,with all the drama at the end they will love each other...they would share sweet memories..it creates a temporary world that allows me to love and be happy...this is my own bisyo....it may not be healty for some time but I cannot give it up..soon maybe when I can be in my own story...my love story ..written by God,,,till then I still cling to my love . sarangeyo...