8.3.10

What's new ..Lifeline is going down again!!. I have so many things to worried about...well... I really should not be worrying on those things but can't help it..
Im stuck in a team where I dont like my Tl..can't explain why..have my own reason but not valid..I dont talk to my mother and brother at all..( so many issues but bottom line I dont want the responsibility) also have issues regarding partition of Land.....Im really old to have this kind of stuff in mind.. But worrying is a trash.. It wont get me nowhere..Good thing there is God...I miss my friends ..I miss the old me..There is so many things that I really have to strive for... Sometimes answers are in front of me but I don't have courage to act on it.... I really some time out..My life is so lame..so stagnant.. I really need a make over..a lifestyle ..It all began when I worked in the call center. I thought I will have all the time in the world to go out.. to explore..to be with the people that I want to be with..but it turns out that all the time I have is not enough to a preoccupied me. The only question is that I have right now is that "would going back to a regular job will bring back my life"....The answer really depends on me..do I have enough will to stand in my desire to go back to the path that I need to go..Help me God..I know I can..with you by myside..I am strong when I am weak.

Looking back..last year this is my last month with PSbank...effectivity of resignation Aug.30.. excited & exhausted at the same time..I've been tough through the years....of all the work & family issues...Its a lot harder than I have right now ...........as of this moment I just want to be alone..or get busy.....regain my self confidence...